Savoring Snow

In the throw of tears
Feeling every kind of sorrow for myself,
Doing the menial task of rinsing out dishes,
Trying to find meaning in my life,
I looked up.
Out the window, snow fell.
Something that usually merits my disdain,
Yet my tears dried.
I found myself smiling, laughing.
I had never seen anything so beautiful,
So meaningful,
So light.
What does it all mean?
Perhaps I’m [...]

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While I Breathe, I Hope

Rain streams down my cheek,
My shoulder.
My head is fill with visions of
My fantasy life.
Twisted metal yearns without respite
For my blood.
My skin grows a film of green
Like my eyes.
I sit and wonder what event shattered
My icy heart.
What is next as I travel around
My hot sun?
All that matters is while I breathe,
I hope.
Dum spiro,
Spero.

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Except Everything

Temptation moves forward
Yet I remain standing
Lost in distraction,
Searching for meaning.
 
When autumn dies
My petals fray and wither
And my heart ices over
In its atypical ovoid shape.
 
Nothing stands in my way,
Except everything.
 
I start to scream into the night
But the rushing wind
Bleeds the sound until it shatters.
Nothing is as it seems.
 
The lies of others follow me
As I run blindly [...]

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Iced

The iced trees are dripping cherries.
They stain the moist concrete.
If sprouts are to come they will find the world changed.
The world is not ready for blossom.
The chilled wind shakes the tree gently.
Oh when will your green awaken?
I feel the pain growing heavy.
Unwanted eyes slowly shift their gaze.
No more thoughts of iced cherries.
Only the petal that [...]

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Moderately Severe Depression

Moderately Severe Depression
No suicidal tendencies.
Blood pressure normal.
Heart rate good.
Moderate panic disorder
Currently under control.
Insomnia and Hypersomnia
At varying times.
Weight gain.
Loss of energy.
Mild mood disorder.
Bouts of severe stress.
Susceptible to viruses and infections.
Severe headaches daily.
Severe migraines twice a week.
Difficulty concentrating.
Memory loss.
Unable to think clearly.
 
Bleak gray surrounding me, filling me,
Not ever inching towards black.
Calm waves wash over me,
Caressing my dried [...]

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World War Three

Screaming mothers clutch onto their dead infants.
Bombs blind the eyes of the dead.
The little girl with the wide eyes watches while hugging her kitten.
The fathers are shot at point blank range.
 
Why have the mothers lost their sanity?
Why have the fathers abandoned their families?
The dead tell us why but we cannot hear.
Me, the little girl with the [...]

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Wanting

I am wanting to
Reclaim the songs that memories stole,
Feel the rhythms surround me,
Float atop the melodies,
Sing among the clouds.
 
Every note, every breath
Which resides within me
Has always been of this substance,
The ethereal substance that is song.
 
Memories attacked me with song.
I could no longer handle the sound
Of this music which loved me so.
At last it is time [...]

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Violet

My eyes cry out for violets.
Whispering voices tell me it’s okay.
“Everything will be fine.”
Yet with each new sun the pain grows.
My thoughts wane with the moon.
All I long for now is comfort.
All I desire is violet.

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Twenty

No longer does the water frighten me,
Yet I am still unable to dive in.
The air is where my spirit resides
Yet I long for water with a passion unknown.
I have seen twenty fallen.
 
My watermark is faint and seems faded,
Yet I know that it has only begun to appear.
The stars yearn madly for the earth
While I desire [...]

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Tonight I Gazed at the Moon

Tonight I gazed at the Moon.
I sat on the soiled pavement
Listening to songs of September,
Gazing upon the Full Fire Moon of August.
I watched as the thin white clouds rose,
Rose up to greet dear Selena.
I feared they would obscure her silvery light.
But not even the clouds could diminish her glory.
Selena shone as brightly as ever before
As [...]

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